Recently I have been trying to collab with someone I have looked up to for years. It was not just the success of the group he was in and him managing to find sucess in another country, but I admire his resilience to a system that tried to break him. I was able to get his ear about a project I wanted to do.(I had a few ideas when it came to creating content but I threw one at him just to see if it would float). Long story short I still have yet to be able to get him in the studio. Anyway on Sunday I don’t know what happened but my cool as a cucumber attitude switched and all of a sudden I found myself going off on him in the dms. The thing that triggered it was that he was celebrating his groups 20th anniversary of their first album release. I know you are wondering. Why would you expect him to invite you to an event with him and his band mates? Well it all goes back to a promise he made in August of 2021. When he was trying to get me on he told me that he would get my tickets to one of their shows. Don’t ask me specifically who I am talking about because I am done dragging him and his name all over social media. Anyway I thought out the kindness of his hurt that he was going to invite( even though the public could come to the event). Another you are probably asking. If it was a public event, Why did you need to be invited? for the last few months me and him have been on shaky terms. This to me is the biggest misunderstanding I have ever been in but it all started over me never getting the contract. Anyway the misunderstanding went downhill from their because he thought I was undermining him and making him look like a bad business man. That was never my intentions I was just making sure that my I were dotted and Ts were crossed. Anway Sunday night got dark with me and I even admitted to him that I had thoughts of suicide. This was not a lie at all. Due to me being unemployed for so long. I have been battling depression and anxiety for the past ten years. Lets be honest I have been battling anxiety my whole life. I didn’t say this statement to get a reaction I said this to show how desperate I am to start my career. No I did not get a reaction out of him or any form of concern so that hurt me even more. Anyway I decided to talk to my good friend K. She gave me a reading and it confirmed everything I need to know. The right eyes are not seeing what they are suppose to see. I love this man but for some reason the meshing I thought we were instantly going to do has not come to past. I’m not going to lie. I do feel like there’s a spirit around you that may or may not be in favor of you but I can’t say for sure. I just know that the spirit almost knocked my back out of alignment and I don’t mean that in a good way if you know what I mean. All I can do is hope for the best and love you unconditionally. I think that is why things went awry for me. I started having conditions when there were no conditions that needed to be made. God already told me you were taking care of me. All I can do is relax, calm down and just know that all good things will work for the good. I got nothing but love for you baby.
Lady Tiphanie Ma's Mind Emporium 